You’re the only reason why my life is worth living, and if I lose you, I’d lose so much more than just you.
c.s. | 2017
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My love
As much as you think I’m a good writer/ artist, I think probably not because sometimes I think if I could, I’d write you all the poetry in the world and if I could, I’d write original songs and sing them to you and if I could, I’d use my hands to paint us together or paint the handsome man I see before me. But sometimes I think maybe I’m not “good” because I compare my work to others and that’s no good either. Sometimes within my own words and my own simple vocabulary I can still show you how I feel. I can still express myself to you. I feel so much for you and I can’t seem to explain it. So just like my work, I’m not the best looking or the best person because that would imply I’m perfect and I’m not. But what I find even more interesting is that true art isn’t beautiful. It’s chaotic and more to it than its physical appearance, it has meaning behind every stroke of paint, it has meaning between every line of poetry. So in this bad poem I’m the artwork and your the person looking at it. You’re seeing past the physical and you’re getting to know the meaning and its value. And for that I’m glad you’re still with me. You’re still observant because not everyone can look at a piece of art and dismantle its meaning. Not everyone and clearly you’re not everyone as I can see. You’re someone and that someone decided to invest in this artwork. Something made you take me to your home, your heart. Thank you for investing your time in me.
They say that if you love something, let it go; it’ll come back if it ever loved you. I used to not believe that. I used to think that if someone loved you, they’d make every effort to stay. I just didn’t realize that even through all the efforts, people still sometimes fail. I didn’t realize that sometimes people leave unwillingly. I didn’t realize that sometimes someone can’t help if they are forced to leave, regardless of all the effort put into staying. But that’s changed now. I realized that if someone ever really did matter, they’ll find a way to be back into your life. Maybe the timing was wrong. Maybe life just needed to mature the both of you. Maybe life just needed to teach you how to act. And maybe, maybe my life knew it was you. I just had to mature up and know how to love you the way you deserve to be loved.
S/W// If you really loved me (via 5000-untold-stories)
The Girl Nobody Knows (By Amanda R.)
There is a girl that everyone knows
Beautiful grin, no worries or woes
Her laugh is one you’ll never forget
She’s living in her past debt
She hates her body, says she is fat
She shouldn’t hate herself, but doesn’t know that
She’s the girl with the biggest smile
Nobody knows she forces up bile
Feels worthless, ugly, abandoned, wasted
No one knows the tears she has tasted
Cries herself to sleep at night
But smiles again once it is bright
She pulls the blade across her skin
Takes comfort in the pain she’s in
She loves the sight of her own blood
She wants to see the beautiful flood
She once said she wished she was dead
She meant it, wasn’t just in her head
This is the girl that nobody knows
Inside her walls she’s forever enclosed
(Source: http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/the-girl-that-nobody-knows)
The saddest part is
that I believed you–truly
I thought you would stay.
Leigh, day 309
(via nothingwithoutwords)
(via nothingwithoutwords)
Falling in love for someone who doesn’t want you. I’m full with a lot of love to share with someone special but no one wants it.
… you’ve had a bad day
Everyone has bad days. They will come and go just like the good ones. If you are tired at the end, go to bed but do not over think it. Maybe if the day isn’t over you can fix it. Talk to me about it. I love when you talk to me about your good and bad days. Eat fine food, buy fine underwear, watch a fine movie. You have to appreciate the bad days just as much as the good ones. They teach you things and you will do the things better next time. “Why do you want to shut out of your life any uneasiness, any misery, any depression, since after all you don’t know what work these conditions are doing inside you? ” I guess that you would be feeling some of these during your bad day.
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